Currently…
This week has honestly been HELL – in the worst possible sense of the word. My entire body hurts, my brain hurts, even my JAW hurts (and for me this is bad since apparently I have TMJ)! I need the week to fast forward to Friday so I can have a long weekend, and actually DISCONNECT for a change. I legitimately am going to turn my work phone on “Do Not Disturb” for the ENTIRE length of the holiday weekend. NO CHECKING ANYTHING (Sorry Jen, if you’re reading this – I can’t!) I feel like if I don’t do this, I am going to experience burnout a lot sooner than I’d like to; especially because I really do like this job (this week it feels like I like it some days more than others — which is NO BUENO).
Anyway, back to the Currently series! This week marks number SIX! First consistent thing I’ve done for the blog, I feel so proud.
Let’s kick it off with I’m Currently:
Listening to…
Kanye West & Travis Scott are BACK together on a new song, “Wash Us in the Blood” – I love it so much; I really do have an eclectic music taste, it’s oddly satisfying. I also have become obsessed with the playlist I made full of throwbacks, TikTok music challenges, and random favorites of mine. It’s those kinds of playlists that become the instant mood lifter I look for when I listen to music. Music becomes my therapy in a sense.
Reading…
I FINALLY finished The Jetsetters; I actually really enjoyed the story, although it probably doesn’t look that way with how long it took me to read the book! I totally cried the last half, like a freaking baby. Now I’m onto Beach Read – it feels like I’ll be done with it this weekend, it’s a light read. I am also catching up on the Social Media posts my friends have sent me and OH MY GAWD I can’t believe people’s small mindedness. I mean where do these people come up with these opinions and theories? I don’t engage because honestly, I have my own shit going on in my life that takes enough of a toll on me. But holy shit; some of these people make me want to virtually air slap them. Where do they come up with this stuff?
Doing…
Doing – my F.R.I.E.N.D.S word search! I found this word search book on Amazon and it’s themed off the TV show F.R.I.E.N.D.S; I was really excited to start it and actually had to force myself to stop last night. Otherwise I would spend all night doing it! It is definitely my new destress technique. I had a rough day, again, today at work so I really need something to pick up my mood and I thoroughly enjoy doing the word searches (and I’m good at it).
Watching…
Criminal Minds; I really should be watching one of the twenty-million shows bookmarked, or even recorded on my DVR, but lately I’ve gravitated to watching “oldies”. Charmed, Criminal Minds, Law & Order, One Tree Hill, etc. I don’t know what it is about these old shows that I just get drawn to them and don’t want to stop. Even on nights where I just want to fall asleep to something I like, I’ll either turn on Criminal Minds or I’ll rewatch for the umpteenth time Fifty Shades Darker and then Freed (I usually always kip the first on; it’s really not necessary for the love story). Sometimes I even turn on the Sex and the City Movie because it’s one of my go to, instant pick me up movies!
Considering…
I am actually exploring the idea of updating (since apparently I haven’t done that in over two years) my resume and putting it “out there” for feelers. I like my job, I really do, but lately I’ve just felt over it and I really do not want to get to that point where I did with Disney. Towards the end of my time with Disney, I wasn’t happy (and that is putting it mildly). Going to work made me miserable, and I really TRULY do not want to get to that point. Where I’m at now, I’ve always loved waking up and going to work. Even on a Monday, or after vacation, I truly enjoyed waking up and heading to work. Not only was it a huge win for me, but it taught me what it felt like to truly love your job (and be happy doing it). No one, if anyone, actually feels that but lately that feeling has been dwindling. I like my job, I really enjoy the people I work with, but I’m getting to the point where I am saying “I’m over it” a little too often. This year was supposed to be different. This year was supposed to be a year full of growth, in the literal and physical sense. I was going to given a more senior role within the department, and I was truly looking forward to that. Fast forward four months, and I’m not actually doing anything related to my job title, I’m working three times as hard and as much, and I’ve experienced no growth; absolutely none. I told myself at the end of last year, when I turned in my performance review, that if this year wasn’t the year I expected it to be then I would start looking at other job opportunities. I understand that this pandemic really messed up the economy and peoples lives, both for health reasons and professional/work related. I truly know how lucky I am to even have a job! But does that mean that I’m supposed to put myself on the back burner? Sacrifice my happiness because the economy tanked? It’s obviously going to limit resources and opportunities, but that shouldn’t stop me from throwing out feelers and seeing what happens with it. I work way too hard, way too often, and way too much for me to feel now the way I did when I was at Disney. I told myself I never wanted to get to that point. Whether it means I have to move again, leave the company, or just find a new job somewhere– I need to do it for me.
Googling…
I am currently googling for any and all possible help. Help for what you ask? Well, my resume and my current frustration with the world, work, life…help on managing my anxiety and stress, I mean how much more could I list here? Honestly I resort to google a lot, but I always end up either on Pinterest or on a few of the blogs/websites that I check on the regular like The Everygirl, or The Glitter Guide, even Refinery29 and Betches. I have a handful of blogs/websites I check on the regular for any kind of update really, but then I always end up finishing my daily google session with Pinterest. I am a total Pinner. I love It. I’ve mentioned before how I completely redid all of my boards, and I let my OCD take control updating the folders and boards and subfolders. I also look for inspiration, whether it’s for fashion, life, hair and makeup, blog tips, quotes, when I need a little lightbulb to go off in my head it’s usually found on Pinterest.
