My 2022 Self-Discovery Series: Journal No. 4

It’s been a hot minute since I’ve contributed at all to this blog, but I’m going to change that by answering the next self-discovery question: “What do I dislike most in my life?”

Honestly, that’s a no-brainer: I wish Enzo was with me.

The one thing I dislike most about my life was that I was robbed of the opportunity to watch my child LIVE and grow up.

WHY I was robbed of that is something I still struggle to understand, especially since my relationship with God and my faith has seriously been impacted by the fact that I don’t have Enzo in this life with me.

I know that everything happens for a reason, I see it all the time…but I despise that saying so much because, in my mind, that means that Enzo was never meant to be in my life full-time.

What parent wants to hear that? I hate that he was taken from me. I hate that I have to live life without him. He should be here and he should have had the chance to grow up. I should have had the chance to watch him grow up.